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Month: March 2008

Starting A New Job

Soo… tomorrow is my last day at my current work. I gotta say, I really am excited about it. I really hated the work I was doing. I’m just not an admin, and spending all day filing and answering phones was really starting to get to me. But, I am very thankful for having that job. It got me here to Portland, and helped me while I got settled in. I will miss my coworkers. I won’t miss the job though.

I start a new job on Monday. I’m rather looking forward to it! I’m going to be doing tech support for Adobe products. Well, I have training first, but you know. I think it will be fun! I will get to meet a lot of new people and hopefully make some good friends. It will also be good experience to put on my resume. I admit, it’s a very basic, entry level posistion, and I could do a lot harder work… but nobody wants to hire me based off of personal experience hah. So, I’m gonna do my time, and see where it goes from there.

It’s a little scary though, leaving a “good job” for such a “low level” job. But, if it’s a step in the right direction, to doing something I will enjoy, then I think it’s worth it

In other news, I am headed up to Seattle this weekend, so it will probably be quiet around here for a little longer.


It’s Too Quiet…

Hmm. I seem to have not updated in a while. No good!!

So what have I been up to? Well, I’ve been kind of dragging my feet through the last couple weeks here at work. I’m just antsy to start my new job and haven’t been able to focus. I’ve also been trying to finish up this stupid filing project so the new girl isn’t stuck with it. I must be nuts… who files at a place they’re leaving?! Hah.

What else… meh. I’ve been mostly trying to stay busy and keep my mind of of stuff, like Tom. Sitting around at home mostly alone is just making me sad. I stick around for a bit so that Xoie can run around but yeah. I’ve been out with the few friends that I have, or out driving, and what not. I’ve watched a LOT of movies in the past week but none of them really stick out in my head. I’m alright, I’m just kind of stuck in a rut right now.

But, I did get to go out to dinner last week with an old friend, and Yoshi was here for a book-signing and we hung out and it was fun (you can read all about it in his blog post titled My day in Beaverton), and what else…. oh, on Friday I went out with a bunch of people that work where I will be working next week (one of my friends invited me out with them) so that was fun. We drank way too much and they probably won’t remember me next week lol but it will be nice to at least vaguely recognize a few faces I almost lost my phone and that would have sucked, but I found it in my truck, whew! And I played Guitar Hero for the first time on Saturday and it was fun, and we made sundaes. I’ve been shopping a couple times and things like that… busy busy. I am rather exhausted though. This “being out a lot” thing is kind of new to me. I’m having fun, but still in my rut.

I am starting to feel better though. We’re getting along better. I’m moving in a month and a half or so which will definitely help, so that my brain doesn’t start going off and thinking things about where Tom is and what he might be doing, because that just doesn’t do me any good. I’m starting my new job next week which I am excited for… I’m going up to Seattle this weekend… yeah, things will look up. I just need some more time I think.

And then I can stop with the depressing posts haha


Apparently, Moses was High

Moses and the Israelites were on drugs, says Benny Shanon, an Israeli professor of cognitive philosophy.

Writing in the British Journal Time and Mind, he claims Moses was probably on psychedelic drugs when he received the Ten Commandments from God.

The assertions give a whole new meaning to Moses being “high” on Mount Sinai.

According to Shanon, a professor at Hebrew University, two naturally existing plants in the Sinai Peninsula have the same psychoactive components as ones found in the Amazon jungle and are well-known for their mind-altering capabilities. The drugs are usually combined in a drink called ayahuasca.

“As far as Moses on Mount Sinai is concerned, it was either a supernatural cosmic event, which I don’t believe, or a legend, which I don’t believe either, or finally, and this is very probable, an event that joined Moses and the people of Israel under the effects of narcotics,” he told Israel Radio in an interview Tuesday.

The description in The Book of Exodus of thunder, lightening and a blaring trumpet, according to Shanon, are the classic imaginings of people under the influence of drugs.

As for the vision of the burning bush, well obviously that too was a drug-fueled hallucination, according to Shanon.

“In advanced forms of ayahuasca inebriation,” he wrote, “the seeing of light is accompanied by profound religious and spiritual feelings.”

Shanon admits he took some of these drugs while in the Amazon in 1991. “I experienced visions that had spiritual-religious connotations,” he said.

The initial reaction to this controversial theory from Israel’s religiously orthodox community and the powerful rabbis who lead it was less than enthusiastic.

Orthodox rabbi Yuval Sherlow, quoted by Reuters speaking on Israel radio, said: “The Bible is trying to convey a very profound event. We have to fear not for the fate of the biblical Moses, but for the fate of science.”


Okay. This is definitely the most interesting article I have read all day. There are two things I try not to really talk about too much: politics, and faith. Those conversations just never seem to go well. But I couldn’t resist posting this.

Now, allow me to preface these next few paragraphs by saying this: I was born and raised Protestant. I have my ups and downs with religion as we know it. Sometimes I’m not sure if I even really believe in God as he was taught to me. I am very confused about my own personal faith. So, I think a lot about possible alternatives.

One of my favorites, that ties in with this story, is this: Why do science and religion have to argue? Why does one have to be absolutely right? What if they’re both right? I think it makes more sense to believe that they’re both right. For instance!

Let’s say Moses was high. Ok… they like to say that the Lord moves in mysterious ways. Maybe God chose to come to Moses while he was high, so that science could explain this vision, but the people that have faith would be able to exercise that faith by believing that God really did make himself and his will known to Moses. Science and Religion are both right.

What about The Big Bang theory? What if… maybe it’s crazy… but what if, when God created the Heavens and the Earth, he didn’t just will it into existence, but rather, was the cause of the Big Bang? Again, Science and Religion can both be right.

Maybe God uses science to his advantage. Maybe it’s his way of doing things so that us mere mortals can somewhat understand it. Maybe he wants us to be able to relate to him just a little bit. Maybe it was never meant to be Science verses Religion, and the two are supposed to work hand in hand to explain Existence.

… just a thought.

(now, before people start commenting, let me remind you of the comment policy, particularly rules 5 and 6. I mean it; I don’t tolerate immature fighting on my blog.)


Redefining A Relationship

So… Tom and I broke up over the weekend.

It wasn’t a bad breakup. There was no fighting. Nobody is mad, we don’t hate each other, we don’t resent each other, we don’t regret anything… we’re just not very good as a couple. We’ve had a few problems lately, and while things were getting better, they weren’t really going the direction that they “should” have gone. We’ve been getting along a lot better, but mostly in the platonic ways.

I could get really detailed about a lot of reasons why it’s better in the long run that we just be friends, but really, there’s no point. I’m slowly making my peace with it. I’ve had some good friends listen to me, my puppy is snuggling with me and I have a lot of things to look forward with. I’m starting a new job soon, and I am looking forward to meeting a lot of new people there and making new, local friends.

A lot of people that know us seem to think that it’s a temporary thing, and that in a few weeks we’ll get back together. I’ve kind of thought about that a bit, and I don’t think that would be the right thing to do. And it’s not because I don’t love him, or because I think he doesn’t love me, or because I don’t want to try to work it out… it’s because I think ultimately, while we probably could make it work, we can both find somebody that is better suited to us. We just need different things, and I don’t think it’s fair to either one of us to make compromises as huge as we’ve had to make.

It’ll take a little time, and it may be a little awkward or painful for a while, but I think in the end, I’ll be happy to be able to call him my friend. I know everything is going to turn out just fine… I just wish that knowing all of this would make me feel better about it.


Anniversary of a Fresh Start

Well, it’s been a year since I moved to Portland. It kind of seems like just yesterday in a way.

So, it’s not really as cold and wet here as everybody made it out to be. Yeah, it gets cold, and yeah, it rains, but it’s doesn’t pour 10 and half months out of the year like everybody made it sound.

I don’t have all that many friends. I feel like I should know more people for as long as I have been here, but I don’t. I would feel sad about it, but the more I think about it, I didn’t have as many friends in L.A. as I should have for as long as I was there. So, whatever. Story of my life I guess haha.

I’m going to be starting a new job in a couple weeks. I am pretty excited. My current one was good for a while, and helped me get my feet on the ground, but now it’s time to move on to different things.

I thought I had everything all situated now, but sometimes things don’t always go as planned. Sometimes things get turned upside down unexpectedly. There’s an area of my life right now that’s sort of up in the air… I think I know what the outcome of it will be but I’m going to let the dust settle a little bit, because sometimes things don’t go as planned.

I feel kind of terrible right now, this is not how I wanted today to be. But I feel confidant that things will look up soon. It’s all a learning experience, and an adventure… or something.