Anniversary of a Fresh Start

March 1st, 2008

Well, it’s been a year since I moved to Portland. It kind of seems like just yesterday in a way.

So, it’s not really as cold and wet here as everybody made it out to be. Yeah, it gets cold, and yeah, it rains, but it’s doesn’t pour 10 and half months out of the year like everybody made it sound.

I don’t have all that many friends. I feel like I should know more people for as long as I have been here, but I don’t. I would feel sad about it, but the more I think about it, I didn’t have as many friends in L.A. as I should have for as long as I was there. So, whatever. Story of my life I guess haha.

I’m going to be starting a new job in a couple weeks. I am pretty excited. My current one was good for a while, and helped me get my feet on the ground, but now it’s time to move on to different things.

I thought I had everything all situated now, but sometimes things don’t always go as planned. Sometimes things get turned upside down unexpectedly. There’s an area of my life right now that’s sort of up in the air… I think I know what the outcome of it will be but I’m going to let the dust settle a little bit, because sometimes things don’t go as planned.

I feel kind of terrible right now, this is not how I wanted today to be. But I feel confidant that things will look up soon. It’s all a learning experience, and an adventure… or something.

  Everyday Life   permalink   5 comments   03:14 PM

things will look up, i’ll be there wednesday!

You’re a loner like I am, and you don’t open yourself up too easily.  Right?

Ahhhhh you’re going to see yoshi!? Lucky you!

Life has it’s way of turning out unexpectedly for sure. You just learn to roll with it… kinda. ::hugs Katie::

Aw, I’m sure things will get better! I know what you are going through though, and I think it’s great that you look at it as a learning experience.
Good luck with the new job!:)

When I first moved to Brighton (where I live now), roughly 5 years ago, I had no friends. I met a few people but I was constantly feeling rejected as I would not be invited out or people would just ignore me. It got very bad to the point of me getting depressed and failing many of classes. Late in the summer and towards the end of that year cycle I made a choice, I changed. I changed my course to something I really wanted to do. I changed myself and I like to think for the better. In other words I started over. I decided that I was better than the people who rejected me and treated me like crap. I moved on and met people who were nice to me and when I came across snobs I just treated them to some of their own poison. It took me a year and a half to get back to my old self. The first year I was here was something closely resembling a nightmare and while the second year was not perfect, it was a lot better than the one before.

What I’m trying to say here, by rambling on like this, is give it time and don’t give up. Changes will help you move on and through your new job you’ll get to meet more people. People who will be worth it and will stick. Planning ahead doesn’t always work very well (like you said) so don’t let it get you down when things don’t turn out the way you thought they would. I know I was very disappointed throughout that first year. But things always get better in the end.

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